Back when our love was new you wrote me a letter. You were upset with something I’d done and found it easier to write your feelings down. I wrote back to you and so it began; for the next five years we wrote letters to each other; during spells when we saw each other every day and during the three years we were both at university.
When I read these letters it reminds me of who we were then, just two teenagers hopelessly in love, it was so easy to express our love. The things that upset us make me laugh now, some things I can’t even remember and just a few that have a slightly deeper hold. It’s all documented; our budding relationship through such innocent writing. It isn’t poetic and it would never set the world alight but it us us. It’s the start of our journey. When you’ve grown up together it’s hard to remember how far your come, you just are! Along the way we’ve changed but we’ve changed each other, taken paths that maybe we wouldn’t have taken without each other and survived things that maybe we couldn’t have faced alone.
The letters remind me of a shy sixteen year old girl and an even shyer eighteen year old boy struggling to tell each other their feelings so they write it all down. Some of it makes me cringe, well a lot of it actually. Some parts make me cry and feel ashamed of the hurt both of us could cause and how deeply it was felt then. Most of it makes me smile and laugh as I see the world through our young eyes; we were so carefree really but could make a drama out of the smallest of things. Mostly they make me love you even more…maybe I don’t write out song lyrics anymore, instead it is a quick ‘I love you’ before you leave for work and last thing at night. Instead of so many passionate and heartfelt words to show our love we have the life we’ve built around each other, a happy home and three of the most beautiful boys I could ever have hoped for.
When I met you we really didn’t know were life would take us. we always wrote how we would be together forever, get married and have children. We were so young but I remember truly believing we were meant to be, that something was just different with us. After all these years I am writing you one more love letter; for the man I love, always. Happy Anniversary.