As I walked the twins to nursery this week I spotted a woman who I used to see every lunchtime when I walked Lucas to nursery. He’d have been three and the twins will have been around nine months, sat side by side in our trusty double buggy and every day she would say hello to us. I’d forgotten about her when Lucas started school full time and we were no longer doing a school run in the middle of the day. Today she passed us and stopped for a chat as she spotted the twins and realised they were on their way to nursery, on the very same walk I was doing three years ago. She couldn’t believe how big they were now, all dressed up in uniform with their backpacks on.
It’s absolute madness to think of how quickly those years have passed. I’ve not been that sad about the twins going of to nursery – which if you know me in real life you will be more than aware of as I’ve been excited about having my afternoons free for quite some time now! However, when I look back and think about how far we’ve come I do feel emotional. It’s not been easy, lots of things haven’t quite gone to plan and I think we muddled through the first year with the twins a little more than we realised. Getting to this point is a big achievement and I know other twin parents who read this would say the same!
Those baby years are so far behind us now that I struggle to remember a lot of it, as much as I loved it at the time I’ve no desire to return to it. Our family as it is now is just perfect and seeing the twins go off to nursery so happily just makes me see it all the more clearly. Each new age is filled with so much more to be excited about and for all those sweet little baby moments that have gone behind us there is something else to fill the gap. My little babies have grown up and this is the start of such a big new world for them.
They both went through those nursery doors without a care, hanging their coats up and running off to play as soon as they could. It doesn’t feel quite so bittersweet this time round. Seeing how much it has changed Lucas has made it so much easier. They are all in a lovely school with such an amazing group of friends – I really couldn’t ask for anything more when we walk through those school gates each morning. Every afternoon me and Lucas wait at the nursery doors as they come running out with paintings and drawings. Even though it’s only been a week I can see differences in them both already already. I see them recognise their friends as we walk to school and play with others as we wait to go in, they’ll tell me little stories from their day and think hard about what they’ve enjoyed the most. They seem so much more grown up than they did just a few weeks ago.
This next year is going to be good for all of us. The twins were definitely outgrowing me and needed something new to do. I am also ready for the time to myself, they need me less and less now so I’m feeling real eagerness to find things of my own to do – even if it is still a little strange being alone in a quiet house. I haven’t quite settled into the new routine yet and I find myself flitting about in the afternoons trying to do several jobs at once. I’ve a big list of things I want to get done but before I know if I’m off to pick the boys up. I’m so conscious of making the most of those few hours but I’m hoping I’ll start to settle into it and feel a little more productive.
It’s amazing to me how much they accept this whole new part of life – they go off ready to learn and try new things without me there as I’ve been all these years. I’m so proud of them – Arthur with his charm, brutal honestly about everything and readiness to show his emotions, his mischief and playfulness that will no doubt get him in trouble even when he hates thinking he’s done something wrong. Brandon with his big imagination, happy giggle and easy going nature; he’s so full of ideas but things needs to be done specifically how it is in his head and everything comes along with a wonderful story. At times they are totally different but at others they are very much the close twin brothers you would expect. I’m glad they have each other, I glad that all three of them have each other to go through life with not just these early days as they get back to school. I’m glad we have them and even when I crave the time to myself I still love it when end of school day rolls round and I get to see their faces as they come out and we can head home again.