At the start of each year I usually write a post, reflecting on the previous twelve months and looking forward to what is ahead. It’s quite a nice way to start the year and one of my favourite things to write. I don’t make resolutions, it doesn’t seem like many people do anymore – we all want to have a better year than the last one don’t we? The last few years I’ve set myself something I’ve wanted to focus on for the year, last year it was to keep it simple. I think we did okay on that front – each year we are becoming more focused on experiences rather than material objects, on being grateful for the little things rather than lusting after things we don’t have.
For 2017, I’m honestly not too sure what to focus on – it was a funny old year with things in the world throwing a huge anxiety over me at times, so much so that I’d shed tears over events in the wider world. However, I’ve found this year I have huge waves of appreciation for the people in my life. It’s nice to have people around you when you’re on top of the world but even better to have the people you can turn to and admit that you’re having a crap day.
It will be another year of change as the twins start nursery in September. Even though it feels like a bit of a deadline, and I want to cram as much as I can into the next eight months, I actually don’t feel too nervous about them starting nursery, not yet anyway. Maybe because they’ll be much older than Lucas was when he began – maybe because they are already so ready for it and most of the time they run rings round me! Maybe it’s just having done it all before I know that everything will be fine. I must admit I’m more than a little excited about a couple of hours of quiet. I’m not sure of the last time that I was ever alone in the house for longer than an hour, will be very odd and equally blissful.
Another big change this year is my lovely Mum is moving abroad which will definitely be a shock to the system, especially after having her so close to us for the last couple of years. As much as I’m going to miss her I’m just mostly incredibly proud of her, for taking the chance and starting a grand adventure. She always reminds me that I can do anything, at any point in life and no matter what happens to you you can choose to smile, be happy and live your dreams. She’s even thinking of starting a blog so watch this space on that one!
My space of the internet has changed so much over the last year and I don’t really know where it will go in 2017. When I started it, Lucas was one and I honestly had no idea what I would ever want to say beyond parenting and family. I really never imagined that I would write about much else but those babies of mine have grown up. Somewhere over the last twelve months I started to realise that I am so much more than a mother and I’d been keeping those parts of myself quiet. I’m trying to be a more outspoken about the things that are just for me. I’ve tried to make the blog reflect more of the true me and the things I love as a thirty something woman – not just as Hayley, mum of three. Sometimes it’s a little scary to step out from behind your children but I do want to do more of that.
When the boys were so young things were changing so constantly we didn’t even have chance to stop and reflect and now life isn’t quite as hectic, things change slowly over time and we are settling into the family we’ll be for many years yet. Me and my husband both say that, despite the usual grown up stresses, we are happier now than we ever have been, as parents and as partners. We went out to a local country park on New Years Day and it was beautiful. Even though we were still a little delicate from the night before and every now and then Lucas would comment that it was boring (teenager in the making) it felt good to be out and about, good to be together. This year I’m just going to take each day as it comes, to do more of what makes me happy and to make the most of this crazy family of mine. Happy New Year!