It’s been a while since I wrote a rambley sort of post – I’ve been feeling a little out of the blogging zone recently. I don’t know why sometimes I feel so on top of everything, I have so many ideas and I can’t wait to sit down and write them all up. Other times it feels like such an effort and then I think it if feels like an effort to me it probably isn’t going to make great reading so I don’t force it. In the hopes that this will spark of my creativity again I just thought I’d write a little bit about where we are right now.
I don’t write about the boys as much as I used too, they’re growing up and there has been such a big shift in our family life because of it. The twins are potty trained now so all those baby and toddler moments are fading away. We no longer have to have boxes and boxes of nappies in the house, I don’t have to buy baby wipes on every shopping trip. It was something I was absolutely dreading but they’ve been so good, I can’t quite believe how quickly they did it. We did keep putting it off till we knew they were definitely ready so maybe that helped.
It made me think about all those things which seem like such a massive hurdle when you’re having children and then once you’re over them you wonder what on earth you were worried about. I remember starting to wean Lucas and feeling like it was all wrong, the same with sleeping in their own rooms or moving into big beds. It always made me feel slightly on edge, as if I wasn’t quite ready for it to happen, especially with Lucas. Now I look back and wonder what all the fuss was about.
During the baby years I was always feeling so sad to see them growing up and now it feels almost the other way, it’s so exciting to have three proper little boys that I look forward to each new stage. And while I wouldn’t say life was ever easy with three children; we rarely get through a night without someone waking up and some days the squabbles can seem endless, it is definitely easier than it ever was. For the first few years often it felt like we were taking one step forwards and two steps back but now it really is getting easier all the time. Just in time to save our sanity! It’s meant more time to focus on ourselves and do things we love too, more time to be husband and wife rather than just Mum and Dad. My husband is starting a new job soon which I think is going to be so good for him and I’m beginning to think about what I’m going to do with my child free hours once the twins start nursery.
This time we are in now is very special, I’m not sure I would want to do the baby stage again. At one time the most important thing was feeding every couple of hours or nailing the bedtime routine and now it’s more about remembering the names of Pokemon and being able to answer intricate questions about Ironman’s suit. I think we’ve come too far out the other side for me to imagine having a baby again. This summer we are going on our first big family holiday to France – it is the first time the boys will have been abroad and I just can’t wait to see what they make of it all. We are driving so it really is going to be one big adventure. The older they get the more I want to get out with them and experience things as before too long it will be going the other way and they won’t want to come out with us at all.
It’s perfect that they are still young enough to be shown new things and still their eyes widen with wonder. More and more I just want them to experience new things rather than just being given more stuff. I want all our moments together and the days out to be the things they look back on fondly as they grow. After everything that’s happened this week I’m just so glad we have our family and it feels even more important to soak up all those little happy moments.